(no subject)

[xiane]

So maybe it's a vacation that I need. Tank so kindly suggested to my boss that I needed a break, and she's game... now I need to decide what I want to do, where, when, with who, etc etc etc. Tank's idea is that I need something to fire up my creativity again, wake me up so to speak... I was trying to explain to him why I think it is that I can't seem to write any lyrics lately - hell, I haven't been inspired to do ANYthing. I'm dead inside, or at least heavily sleeping. Nothing seems to spark in me these days, nothing interests me beyond a short list of grand interests [see below] that only really break through the malaise marginally more than the rest of the world. Maybe my depression is raging out of control and I just don't know it. Maybe I'm just suffering a bad case of ennui. Hell if I know. I just want it to stop. It's the creative parts of my life that keep me going, and I haven't been able to love much of anything at all. My tiny, treasured list of importances that keep me going, and meagerly at best:

Astronomy
science fiction
my very few key relationships
music
singing
the energy I get around MB sometimes
my computer

bleh. I can't even think of a decent list. Sad.
What do I do? mmmmmmah.

Comments

[krasota.livejournal.com]

come visit me. ;)

the moving truck arrives saturday (will be unloaded sunday)...

we have open fields, trees, and clear skies.

la la la.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

As soon as you have phonage, give me a call so we can chat, girlie!

woohoo!

[krasota.livejournal.com]

have phonage!

was gonna stop by and see you at work today, but my parents decided to eat at taco bell, instead. we were gonna have pizza on the DT mall (parents have small furry companions), but neil can't walk too far without falling over. so they opted for a place where they could stay very near to the car. ;)

after that, i had frozen food, so had to come home.

i'll give you the phone line as soon as boy arrives back to ask. i think he's in the bathroom.

you must come visit soon. it's still a labyrinth of boxes, but i missssss you! i can pick you up any time.