apologies. news. changes.

[xiane]

If I seem flighty or moody, I apologise ahead of time and will try to extend the same as soon as I catch myself doing it. There's a lot on my mind, and will continue to be a lot on my mind for a while. The flighty thing, that's going to happen. That's no excuse for treating my friends poorly, though, so let me know if I don't catch myself.

The news is slowly trickling out, so i might as well quell all rumours now.

Yes, I am leaving Charlottesville.
Yes, I am moving back to Baltimore.
No, The Dawning/SubShock will not stop.
No, the scene will not die, unless you want it to.
Yes, I will miss everyone horribly.
No, I won't change my mind. I can't.

The gist of it: you guys all know by now that my Dad died last week. For those who didn't catch the details, he felt sick at work, so he left... and on the way home, he plowed into a tree at 45 MPH. It was rather quick and obviously very sudden for my family... and my Mom needs me. Dad was her best friend. The house is big and empty right now, and there *are* some advantages of doing this for me, as well. I'll be able to finally get back on my feet, financially. I will be getting a car. I'll be able to take some classes.

There's so much I'm leaving behind that I don't want to... but I'm trying to look at the opportunities [and generally succeeding, athough I have my maudlin moments] and stay positive. It was not an easy decision to come to, but I feel it's the right one.

I'll be leaving after Election Day. There will be things for sale or for free. if I own you stuff in the mail, or money, or some time, you'll get that before I go.
If you own ME money, or time, or something good... now's the time to get with me. Especially if you owe me money, and you know who you are. [stern Xiane voice] Certain people have taken advantage of my good and loving nature, and I'm going to tell you now.. the kid gloves are coming off. I have little to lose, and I'm tired of being taken advantage of in certain situations. I'm living fucking hand-to-mouth over here right now, and that doesn't include new toys and Jager and trips to places that I'm taking instead of paying my bills. I'm *still* being nice, but next time I mention this I won't be so kind.

That being said, expect me to be calling bullshit a LOT more as the days go on. I'm still the same kind and loving girl... but oh, you're not going to get the watery version that some people have noted me displaying.

I have to go to work. Questions? Love? ..hate? leave a comment, I s'pose. Whee.

Comments

[onceupon.livejournal.com]

*HUUUUUUUUUG*

Let me know if I can help.

[baobh.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, and the upcoming upheaval. Good luck with cracking down on bullshit, I know it's hard.

[kamera-shy.livejournal.com]

I didn't know about your dad. I'm sorry.

Good luck with your move and I hope to come up your way soon, so much fun.

[dj-vortex.livejournal.com]

hopefully i will be able to come up there before you have to leave. well at least you are going from one great scene to a scene that i have seen over the years just explode onto the goth map per say.

[fatespawn.livejournal.com]

Love! We're going to miss you down here, but good luck up in Baltimore. Come visit when you can.

[lostmoth.livejournal.com]

Much luck and happy thoughts for you... you are a wonderful person and I hope that this move takes you to bigger and better things! :)

[vurtsnake.livejournal.com]

It's never easy to make/follow through with tough decisions like this. You're in my thoughts, and we're wishing you all the best. Hang in there... :)

*hug*

TechWolf

[crossbonesdj.livejournal.com]

If you need ANYTHING, you know you have it. I'm happy in some ways, because my sister will be closer to me. I know this is tough - we're here for you.

[eilonwy.livejournal.com]

I feel like saying that I'll miss you could be construed as a lie since even though right now I'm only 40minutes from you I so seldom get to see you. Regardless, it *is* the truth, and I *will* miss you-- and I know this because even from just this side of the mountain I miss you.

That said, I'm not the least bit surprised, and if you think this is what's right for you then I'm behind you 110%. And Baltimore's not so far away, really, in the grand scheme of things.

It'd be awesome if you could come visit for kitteny love (or I'll bring 'em to you) before you go.

::Hugs:: & love and the bestest of wishes. and more ::fierce hugs::

[redzshadow.livejournal.com]

I'm going to miss you so much. I want you to do what is right for you. I know you will. And it really isn't that far away. The sucky thing...I am working into November now. Most likely just the first week...but that is when you leave :(

[eure-maum.livejournal.com]

*sniffles* =huggles= we'll miss you!

oh, and you so better get on AIM more often once you move so i can talk to you more girlie!

[lady-waist.livejournal.com]

of course she will. Of course.

[lady-waist.livejournal.com]

i knew you'd do this. i would have.

Everything -will- get better.

[jdavyd.livejournal.com]

*HATE*

i mean... wait. what?

*HATE*

no, thats not it.

umm... *HATE*

goddammit. i cant figure out what it is i'm supposed to be saying.

[baldchik.livejournal.com]

i think its wonderful that you are being so supportive of your mother right now... I will miss you, as will everyone! its not that far away though...youll have to come back for shows sometimes.

Wow.

[dj-vlad.livejournal.com]

Upheaval abound! I hope your move goes well, and we'll only be a skip and a city away if you're feeling "DC".

[rat-bastard.livejournal.com]

There is no hate.

There is only Zuul.

and ROCK N'ROLL! YOOOWWWWWWWWWWWW!

NINJA! NINJA! RAP!

[jdavyd.livejournal.com]

COWABUNGA DUDE!

[orientallilly.livejournal.com]

*LOVE*

going to miss you, but you gotta do what you must. i think your right, in many ways this will be good for you. just don't forget about us.

[glitterdream.livejournal.com]

=(
I'm gonna miss ya, you're my favorite dj. *hugs*
I have the $5 that I pledged for SubShock, and I will be bring that to The Dawning this Saturday. Will you be there?
good luck with everything...

[krasota.livejournal.com]

obviously, you and I will need to do some roadtripping from time to time.

[t-revelator.livejournal.com]

I wish you the best in your new situation. I am (selfishly) excited that you will be closer, but I can only imagine how hard it must be to leave a decade+ (has it really been that long?!?) of friends, memory, and LIFE in VA.

Please let me know if I can help in any way.

love,

T

[mrjustice.livejournal.com]

Chris,

I have some money for you, and I'm going to need your address so I can send you MORE money. This kinda thing should be happening more offten now that things seem to be settling into a semi-comfortable place.

Mucho Love

[bloodlossgirl.livejournal.com]

only *love* and the best wishes to you!

upheaval. it's everywhere. yay for doing what's best for us, and huzzah for new adventures and places! :)

[mmymoon.livejournal.com]

*squishes* I wondered if this was what was going down. :/
It's follow your bliss (er, or follow of the path of least crapsistance) time for all of us, it seems. I'll just have to drive a bit farther to bring you cookies...

Now, gimme all your stuff! *cackles* Let me know when you need help cleaning/packing, cause I'm your girl for gruntwork. I finally got all my fuckie--er, duckies in a row, so I can help you pluck yours... I'm a fowl weather friend... *ducks*