It's written all over my face.

[xiane]

So I had this entry typed out, and it accidentally got killed. Maybe it is a sign that I shouldn't talk about things today. Eh, when have I ever paid attention to portents?

Let me start off this by saying: I'm happy. I used to submerge myself in a fantasy world, to escape the self-wrought prison of a very bad relationship that I couldn't seem to extricate myself from... once I broke free, I mostly came to the place where a larger part of the populus lives, mentally. I think.

But... I'm obsessive. I watch people interact, and I want that for myself. I notice someone notice me [or at least my little ego thinks they do], and I want to be noticed, I draw little scenarios in my head with what-ifs. I am a master of speculation. I guess it passes the time, and I use it to feed my creative storytelling. I just wish I had more control of my brain and feelings sometime. I'm sure this is probably normal... right? At least it is all internal. I'm pretty sure no one sees me feeling this way. I think.

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Master

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Master of speculation... that's clever. Paint me speculative, too.

[(Anonymous)]

We-ll, based on my limited personal expierience I would say it was quite normal...hm...or maybe it is just us...*raises eyebrow*
~Stompy~