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[xiane]

Hi. My name's Chris Knight, you might know me from The Dawning or LJ communities or just because.

I have a few things to clear up.

I miss my old life, yes. But I spent a great deal of time over the past year being horribly unhappy about a lot of aspects of it, and I was desperately looking to change it.

I wasn't pleased when a tragedy opened up that path.

But now, here I am, and funny to think - now that I'm someplace different, things are finally moving forward for me.

I like my job. I'm pleased with the prospects for a new club, and I feel fresh and excited about it. It's going to be closer to the music I adore.

And speaking of adore - I've held my tongue too long on this. Everyone, meet inefficiency. Some of you know him already. He's super. He's sat by quietly while I've tried to get my head together, and you know what? It's been grossly unfair that I've not introduced him around to those who haven't met him. He's been my lifeline for a while. I <3 him.


It was pointed out that I stopped being brashly outspoken a while ago. I'd learned to not tread on toes, and it stifled me. I still don't want to tread on toes, but I need to live my life to the fullest. I've put my life in second to too many other people's dreams for too long. That's not their faults, but don't you DARE deny me my happiness now, or I'll fucking cut you right out of my life. that's the honest truth.

This is my statement - there's change blowing in the air, and ANYONE can be moved by it. It's all about attitude. I allowed myself to be brought low, and NOW I refuse to do so. I'm only looking to the stars. You should do the same, if you want to. No matter what, do what you will, but don't piss on my parade or you'll find that you had NO idea that being on the wrong side of me sucked so bad.

That being said, I'm going to sleep. See you lovely people in the morning... I hope your dreams are beautiful.

Comments

[inefficiency.livejournal.com]

I understood why you handled things as you did, and even when I might've wished otherwise, I supported the way you were handling things, because you did your best to take care of everyone.

And I love you so much for saying all this about me, and for making your own stand.

Hell, I just love you.

[dichotomous.livejournal.com]

Shelby is 2 hours away from me. We should do something sometime, if you make it down this-a-way.

[inefficiency.livejournal.com]

If my begging improves, she might just wind down that (this?) way, I'd imagine in the summer after I've graduated from Ship. Of course, I certainly can't speak for her. =D

[crossbonesdj.livejournal.com]

You, my dear sister, prove yet again why I love you so much.

[silent-muse.livejournal.com]

Parts of your old life miss you too, but are overjoyous at the new life you've found.

It was funny, my immediate reaction to your club night: "Heh. Well, that didn't take her long, did it?"

I had absolute faith you'd get on your feet right away. What's amazed me is how quickly you've taken to the sky. I'm proud of all you've achieved in this short time, and my only regret is that you couldn't do it here, but I guess that's just me being selfish.

And as for you being a bit more blatant, it's about damn time. Being kind, caring, and sympathetic is one thing. But live life for you, darling. Amen.

Oh, and hi inefficiency! I've heard of ya, but never been formally introduced. Glad to finally have you two in the spotlight. Thanks for making our favorite gal so happy. . .

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Hello! (And this is terribly late, I apologize). Making Xiane happy has been nothing but the utmost pleasure. It's nice to meet you, too!

[explodingcat.livejournal.com]

It's amazing how things work out sometimes. I miss you. But at the same time, I was happy to see you leave. I had this feeling that some great opportunities were going to open up for you. I'm glad to see that's coming true.

[glass-grenade.livejournal.com]

Man, somebody must've invoked the wrath and fury of THECHRISKNIGHT.

You need to take lots of pictures of the club night and post 'em when it happens. Yes.

[soulcry.livejournal.com]

Fucking A! Rock on Chris, keep it up, and I miss ya!

[elizablessing.livejournal.com]

not that its the same situation, but you just said a lot of stuff i should have said a long time ago....

i hope you are happy.

miss you

xoxox

Dear Chris?

[lady-waist.livejournal.com]

you know, i have such a hard time imagining why anyone would want to make this less exciting or fun for you.
i'm glad you got a job already and are heading right on your way.
Why isn't everyone just proud to have had "first dibs" [so to speak]. We had you for a long time and it was amazing and you still love us. Why isn't everyone just giving you all the support you always gave? i don't get it.

[mimiakemi.livejournal.com]

Some people are just born wallowers and after a certain point you have to stop caring or they'll keep dragging you back down with them.

[mimiakemi.livejournal.com]

Hate to burst your bubble, but I'm equal opportunity when it comes to being against wallowers, cupcake. Your haiku though is as beautiful as it is deliciously hypocritical.

(frozen)

[jdavyd.livejournal.com]

outside looking in

[alannakitty.livejournal.com]

I don't really know you yet but anyone who is a friend of Aurora's usually kicks ass. Thank you for sharing your LJ with me and I added you as well.

Since I don't know the history behind all of what you said... I guess all I can really say is don't let anyone walk over you or piss on your parade.

Good luck with the new night... like I said... let me know what is up with the site that way I can make sure it is listed on Ascension's website as well!

*hugs*

[glitterdream.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that things are going well with you.
I'm about to go through a big change myself and you are my inspiration for getting thru it :)
Miss ya. *hugs*

[verticale.livejournal.com]

I'm smiling for your. A lot. <3

[nachtorchideen.livejournal.com]

wow. i feel like i might sob and choke on my heart in the process, but in a good way. bless you, chris. i know it's weird coming from me (the unreasonably shy and strangely... not scared of, what's that word?) but jeez i hope you have the best best best time! i would really like to talk to you, but fear that once you talk back i will regain my coma-like shyness. *ENORMOUS HUG*