the other shoe.

[xiane]

Um.

My dad died this morning. In a car crash.

I will be going home for a few days. Mom seems to be okay so far. I don't know how she'll hold up, but I recently learned she's much stronger than I'd ever suspected, so I think she'll be okay. He was my stepdad, but he was the only father I ever knew. He... fucked up pretty badly on some important levels, but I still love him.

I don't think I like September anymore.

Comments

[bloodlossgirl.livejournal.com]

oh no! xiane you have my deepest condolences and sympathies :(

[xiane.livejournal.com]

my friends are the best friends ever. thank you for caring about me.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

thank you, Greg... your thoughts help immensely.

[velvetslade.livejournal.com]

:-( Many HUGS for you!!!!!!!!

[xiane.livejournal.com]

trust me, hugs are just what I need. thank you.

[ladylizbet.livejournal.com]

Oh Sweetie. I'm so sorry for you loss. My condolences to you, and your family.

xxx

[xiane.livejournal.com]

thank you, dear friend.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

thank you... and that icon is just what I needed to see. that's excellent.

[paisli.livejournal.com]

Oh my.. I'm so sorry =( *hug*

[xiane.livejournal.com]

thank you for thinking about me. i might be back for more hugs, it's looking to be that sort of week. heh.

[onceupon.livejournal.com]

Oh, love, I'm so sorry.

Let me know if there's anything I can do for you, even just talking on the phone.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Marianne, I might take you up on that in a little while. There's a whole other side to this craziness that I can't even talk about, and it's making me nuts... just hearing friendly voices will be wonderful. Right now I'm just sitting here in shock, but by tomorrow I'm going to be nutters.

Thank you for being here for me.

[mrprozac.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Todd. Thank you so much.

[ladymeshel.livejournal.com]

Oh, Chris...how awful. My thoughts are with you and your family *hugs*.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweetie... I'm going to pass all this love on to my Mom as soon as I see her... she has no idea that I have so many wonderful friends.

[eure-maum.livejournal.com]

=huggles= if you need to talk to someone, i'm here for ya.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, Amy. As soon as I'm ready to talk, I'll be looking for you. I don't think I'm quite at phone stage yet... that makes it too real. Soon.

I used my cutest icon for this in hopes to make your heart squish.

[glass-grenade.livejournal.com]

Good thing September is almost over =( It's not nice.

*Many hugs* Wish I could be there in person to give them to you. I don't have a lot, but whatever I've got that you need, just let me know and you can have it [of course that goes for all the time].

Re: I used my cutest icon for this in hopes to make your heart squish.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

That kitty makes me want to curl up with it and go to sleep. Right about now, I wish I had a kitty. My eyes are already teary, I wouldn't even mind the allergies. Miss Gimp, my most caring cat, used to come stick her nose all over my face when I was upset. And if I was crying too loudly, she'd come smack me in the mouth. No lie.

I have to work from 3 - 7. Yeah, I'm going, might as well. If you want to stop by, that would be awesome. And thank you for being such a consistent and lovly friend.

[violet-heather.livejournal.com]

Oh my god sweetie I am so sorry. I know you have been dealing with a lot lately, and really, if you need to get away later and get some R and R, you are more than welcome at our house.
I will be thinking about you and your family a lot.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I've been wanting really badly to come up and visit you guys and see the new house too... ifI had a running car, it would be so much easier. I might take you up on the Escape to Hill House very soon, though. Thank you for all your kindness... my friends have truly been my safety net through everything. I am very lucky.

[dj-radioactive.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry - you are in my thoughts, I know you are tremendously brave and strong, please know you're not alone!
You have my deepest sympathy.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, Sanja... you and Alban are such super people, I miss you both so much. I'm beginning to realize just how lucky I am, I am made strong by my friends.

[ego-likeness.livejournal.com]

My god x.
Im sorry.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. Maybe while I'm in Baltimore I'll be able to stop by the studio finally and drag my mom to meet you. She might need diversion. I'm hoping that I can see some people while I'm there. *I'll* need diversion.

[lostmoth.livejournal.com]

I am so very sorry for your loss. :( *hugs* I'm sending you all the happy thoughts and positive vibes I can!

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you so so much. I'm soaking up all the love and storing the extra for when I need it [which will probably be soon].

[dcunitedfreak.livejournal.com]

Oh, chris...I'm so very sorry...please give my condolences and thoughts to you and your family during this time of hardship :(

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you so so much. I might be looking for coffee distractions soon, I'll let you know when/if that happens. Talking to you yesterday was lovely.

[kava.livejournal.com]

you're in my prayers xiane. you are obviously one to take after your mother's strength.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you, my friend.
You know, I always thought I was the strong one in the family. Now, I'm not so sure. I think I underestimated my mom all these years, and never knew it. Things you learn in times of strife...

[anathemadevice.livejournal.com]

:(

our sympathies Xris.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Your thoughts are so appreciated... thank you.

[13ghosts.livejournal.com]

this truly is a sad month. I am Very sorry to hear of your fathers death. its good you'll be there with your mother, because when your around everything just seems better. again my all my hart goes out to you and your family.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for the kind words... My mom's a super lady, much more so than I. i think she'll be touched when she hears about how many people sent their well-wishes and love.

[eilonwy.livejournal.com]

I know words don't help at a time like this. But I'm here for you. You and your family are in my thoughts. ::fierce hugs:: If you want to run away to W'boro for some kitty love, or to get away, or if there's anything I can do for you, just let me know and it's/I'm yours. Love to you and yours.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you so so much. Kitties do make everything better, don't they? I might come over the mountain after I come back from Bmore, because that's when I'll really want to just sit and pet kitties. My mom has cats, too, and I suspect they will be getting much love from me while I'm there.
I'm just rambling on at this point - I don't think things have fully set in yet. I will call/emal/im. something.

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[dj-vlad.livejournal.com]

I have no good words in the face of tragedies like these, but I wish you the strength to get through this, and hope the best for you and your mom in light of this...

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[xiane.livejournal.com]

Those words were better than just "good".

Thank you, Vlad. I keep saying this, but I know how lucky I am to have friends like you, and I want everyone to know it. Not saying how I feel has gotten me into trouble lately. I'm not making that mistake again. Your thoughts are really appreciated.

[tennesseeiris.livejournal.com]

I'm a friend of Amy's... I hope you don't mind that she gave me your LJ name...

I'm so sorry for your loss. If it helps, know that I'm sending all the positive thoughts I'm having today your way...

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. Every positive thought helps me immensely. I'm overwhelmed by the love I've been so lucky to receive.

[mustelidmania.livejournal.com]

oh sweetie I am so sorry. I remember how it was when my dad died. I will talk to you when you get back.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you... your thoughts are so important to me.

[angelitica.livejournal.com]

Oh my god *virtual hugs cause i can't be there to give you a real one*

I am so sorry :(

[xiane.livejournal.com]

*hugs Aned tightly* Thank you so much. My friends are my strength.

[kazoogrrl.livejournal.com]

Hey, found out about your dad this morning from Steve (from Ego Likeness, this is ding0's girlfriend Amy). Just wanted to say I'm really sorry, and that we're thinking of you up here in Baltimore.