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In so many ways I've become happier since everything's changed... there seem to be a lot of negative forces in my life that have cleared away. Although occasionally tiny tentacles from that past reach out and try to ensnare me, I've generally been able to avoid those traps. It is so easy to become dragged into a vortex of bitterness and disappointment, and god knows I've been there before. I don't want to ever go there again. I refuse to carry around that sort of baggage anymore, and everyone reading this should take this to heart. Don't let the negative run your life! Damn. So many amazing people I've watched just get worn down by things that need to swirl right by you... THEY DON'T MATTER. What matters is doing what you believe in. What matters is doing what makes you happy, and makes the people around you happy [but not at YOUR expense]. What matters is living your life to the fullest and letting the bullshit go. What matters is not being afraid to TRY.
Throw all the rest of it away. Trust me on this one.

and a ps for someone who puts trust in some suspect places... be careful, okay?

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I wish I had more to say. I have been a bit isolated lately, no one's fault but my own... I have felt really tired and listless this week, and I blame that on August. It seems like every year at this time I get these feelings... it only took me 35 years to recognize that, yay. Poop. I'm just tired and though I have lots of ideas I have almost no drive or energy to act on any of them. I really like working at Coyote, though. I'm glad to be hanging out with Vimala on a regular basis, and I like the change of pace. The atmosphere there reminds me of Grandma's Candle Shop, back in the day, and that also makes me smile.
I just wish I knew how to jump-start my life. If I've seemed distant, I swear that's what it is. Don't hate me ;)