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[xiane]

Despite the best efforts of some of my dear friends, I'm not feeling myself yet. I haven't much felt like writing here. I should be putting thoughts down; NaNoWriMo is right around the corner, TWO days from now. I know what I'm going to write about; it isn't what I told you about, sxoidmal. I've got a blazing new story to tell, and we shall see if it coalesces into something worth, or just another bunch of words that I uselessly poured out into empty air.
That's pretty much what I feel like, friends. solieri, I really appreciate lunch and talking today. You helped a lot, and just having someone listen who just wants to be around me for me was a wonderful thing.
Tomorrow is my favourite holiday. I hope that I am better off by then. I know: things could be so much worse. Logic has nothing to do with feelings, which is unfortunate.

Comments

[audiorapture.livejournal.com]

You should have watched the movie with us... babyrapture got so tired he curled himself up on the floor with his boo-boo-bear and a tape measure (!) and slept through the last half hour... Who can feel numb watching /that/??

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Your little one is definitely good for inducing smiles :)

[eure-maum.livejournal.com]

*hugs* gotta hate it when ur feelings are making you feel down when ur fav holiday is coming up. logic should sometimes overrule feelings, i believe. cuz sometimes, it is more important when the feelings make you feel like u are going insane.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetie. I appreciate your kind words *so* much.

[eure-maum.livejournal.com]

=)

[shaktiqueen.livejournal.com]

I think I am in the same headspace you are.....maybe we are just conserving our words for nanowrimo...

Whatever.....here are some hugs. ((((HUG))))

[xiane.livejournal.com]

(((((hugs))))) back... you sound like you need it, too. I think we need a NaNaWriMo community of support amongst us. Do you know what you're going to write about yet?

[sxoidmal.livejournal.com]

I look forward to hearing about your story! I'm glad you're indulging your creative streak, maybe you'll inspire me to fan my own embers... Strength to you! Good luck with the future!

my writing advice (you may already know some of this)

[oletheros.livejournal.com]

a couple of things:

first, you don't need a complete plot or outline. just have a beginning and an end. know where you're starting and what your destination is going to be. you can make up the rest as you go along (that's the best part, actually). it's good to have an idea of what's going to happen, but there's no need to be orthodox about it.

second, find a system that works for you and stick with it. do you write better in the morning or in the evening? standing up or sitting down? alone in silence or with music blaring?

third, try to end your writing session before you finish the thought or scene you're working on. that way you have a thread to pick up when you start again and you don't lose momentum wondering what to write next.

fourth, don't worry about the perfect spelling or sentence structure for the first draft. just get the story down. later drafts are for revisions.

that's my writing advice for the day. good luck! of course, i'll want to read it when you're done.

[silent-muse.livejournal.com]

Aw. . . it was a blast for me too, sweetheart. Wish you could've come to Noises Off, you woulda really enjoyed it. Still, it was great to hang out with you and only you when neither of us were working. Happy Halloween!

[mustelidmania.livejournal.com]

sweetheart, be happy you have support. and people who don't pass judgement.

[mustelidmania.livejournal.com]

sure wish I had as much sometimes.

[eilonwy.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: <-- I know that doesn't mean much, but. :( And you can't *force* yourself to be yourself, you can only try and take steps towards happiness. I hope your Hallowe'en is going well, and I'll see you tomorrow for real hugs.

[seeliespright.livejournal.com]

I sorry :(

I know how you feel about "logic has nothing to do with feelings." I've been seeing a counselor and he told me that I have "a wonderful support network" and "good friends who love and care about me."

So why am I still so depressed?

And I definately had a moment last night with one of my good friends. We're both feeling really lonely and depressed. But logically, we should be glad we at least have each other.

Anyway, I didn't mean to talk about myself so much in my reply. I just wanted to let you know that I can sympathize with unhappiness and so I send you ((Hugs))

Looking forward to good times tonight at Day of the Dead... i'll see you before that for decorating around 4.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Ha! Let me tell you irony.

I just replied to you that you have friends who love you.
I got frustrated by people who love me not being able to understand that it is *depression* - it doesn't really have to have a cause. It just is, and things can aggravate it. And whether you have friends or not, it goes away when you level out and not before.
And your counselor told you the same thing that I did, and that I got frustrated at.

None of us know how to deal with stuff at all, do we? We're all stumbling in the dark. But it *IS* true - we have each other. We can cling to each other's hands desperately, so we're not utterly alone. It is worth mentioning time and again, because it is worth something.

We'll get through this.