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[xiane]

I walk a lot, as I have no car. What I really like about walking - besides the exercise - is the chance to often have time all to myself, just me and my brain. I'll find myself trancing out and thinking about a million things that I never get to cover in my droning day-to-day life. It is one of the few, precious times I have where I get to be alone, such as that is. Tonight on my way home I thought about the past few days, and why it is that this week I'm happier, when last week the same issues were happening yet I was either enraged or depressed. There is no rhyme or reason for my feelings sometimes, I swear. The same shit is going on, yet this week it barely touched me.
Godfrey's last night: it was goofy as hell, the same old shit, bad music - I didn't even dance, ha - yet I managed to have a great time. Go figure. Most of that was spent talking to The Dosh and Liam and Rat Bastard, drinking rum and cokes, and bouncing off the walls thanks to the enormous amounts of pixy stix I consumed... it was fun, somehow. I came home rather relaxed, and giddy. That feeling lasted into today, even with the barely four hours of sleep I managed to glean. I didn't get angry at all today, and that's quite the shocker. I'm tired of getting angry. I'm tired of feeling down. I'm ready to try and let some fucked up shit breeze by me for a while and just relax to the best of my ability. Don't know how that's going to be incorporated into my weekend, but it WILL, dammit. Maybe I'll even get a chance to work on lyrics and vocals for the newest TVD songs.

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[symvomitpuddle.livejournal.com]

I'll find myself trancing out and thinking about a million things that I never get to cover
in my droning day-to-day life.

I get that way when I play Tetris DX :P

drinking rum and cokes, and bouncing off the walls thanks to the enormous amounts of pixy stix I consumed...

You gotta watch that - mixing alcohol and sugar can be deadly.
I don't know who, but someone told me you didn't drink.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I usually don't drink, these days. I used to be a pretty heavy drinker, but I started to not enjoy the whole routine about 6 months ago; I stopped drinking around the time that Navy Boy came home. I just didn't like the mood I was getting in when I drank. Since then, I've had a beer or two while playing pool, but beer does absolutely nothing to me, and it's been ages since I drank liquor [until Wednesday night]. payback has been encouraging me to drink, with the idea that I need to relax and have fun... and I did manage to, although I think the sugar was what really did it. Of course, I didn't drink very much, just two drinks. My metabolism shook that off easily - it was more the idea of drinking than actually trying to get drunk.

[symvomitpuddle.livejournal.com]

I see. Drinking is good. Decadence is good. Sobriety is boring.

I'm not sure if I should start referring to payback as "Payback" or stick with "Human Visitor"...

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Sobriety is rather boring. It would not have aided me at all at the evil that is Godfrey's.
I usually refer to people by their LJ names, especially if I converse a lot with them in their journals... although sometimes I give them code names if I'm feeling like I want to obscure the situation a bit, on a whim, or if the entry calls for it in my mind. I like Human Visitor as a code name, though. Maybe you can use a regular html link, instead of the LJ link, if you want to refer back to his journal. *shrug*

[symvomitpuddle.livejournal.com]

word.

I like the phrase "Human Visitor" so much... and it's one of the few things left from that insane journaling time... machine governing, monstrosity, etc.

Although, the idea behind not using the lj tag is that you don't point at who it is... linking would sort of defeat the anonymity.