My brain is not damaged but in need of some repair

[xiane]

It’s late. I slept all day – stomach-ache – and have been awake since 10pm. I used to stay up all night as a matter of course, and of course if you’ve known me for any amount of time, you know all about the insomnia… but lately I’ve been on a much more “reasonable” schedule, so this is odd and almost foreign to me these days.

I like the silences. Funny, I don’t even feel particularly alone right now, because most EVERYONE is asleep. It’s my world.

My world right now is a place to plan and scheme. I’m working on getting out of here sooner, rather than later. I want to get back to the Bay and RL and my Mom and friends. I want to be able to save money towards my freedom. There’s a lot to be done to make that happen. I need to set a schedule for myself – both of what I need to do, and how I want to run my business to make it work properly during a huge shift in my life. I need to adjust my way of life a bit – I’ve been quite pleased with running my own schedule, and I wouldn’t have quite that much freedom once I’ve moved. I need to cull some things – wardrobe, for one, because I have stupid amounts of clothes. And purging some of my other stuff isn’t such a bad idea either, although I’ve done well with keeping the gathering to a minimum since I left RW.

These are the things on my mind. And yes, I’ve been much happier. I’m not faking it too much, even if that is the Modern Way.

Mirrored from ...a small light in the darkness..