Radio Silence... observe Radio Silence...

[xiane]

oh to paint her eyes so red and her lips so blue
carve her legend on the bow - Caroline four-five-two
when they come to call for her I will be there too...

So I've been rather absent again. Sorry about that. If I haven't commented on your posts, that's why, and I'm sorry.

I don't think many have noticed my silence anyway. I know who did, because they took the time to tell me.

I've been kicking around the idea of a new journal for those who actually give a crap about what I have to say. Then I think about it and I realize that it just doesn't matter. The people who care already read this, and those who just talk the talk don't bother anyway. Problem solved.

Not to sound so negative, sorry. Just something I keep forgetting to comment on, and remembered to now. Otherwise, all is going pretty well - despite occasional migraines and depressive moments, I've maintained a rather cheery attitude, and also managed to start really getting my business on the map.

See? http://www.wickedlychic.com/354/wicked-love---january-11 Not too bad of a start. I also met another Etsy person *in town* [shock] and not only is she cool but she's fun and inspirational to be around. That's something really helpful for keeping me motivated. I needed it.

Rob and I have our first wedding anniversary on the 18th. I have a lot of things to say about that, but it'll hold for a bit. I can tack on a "he's wonderful and I'm so lucky" just to hold you, though. :D

I miss several wonderful people. I feel like I've lost some great people lately, too. Makes me sad, though I know that's how life works. I'm glad to see things changing for the better for some friends. And I send extra love to those who really need it.

Yeah. That's about it, I guess.


She tune in till the tune suits her right
she tune in till the dial come alright
she tune the dial till the needles-'s in the white
tune in tonight
tune in tonight
tune in tonight...

try to think of nothing

Comments

[ladylizbet.livejournal.com]

Is it really almost a year?

Holy crap? Where's the time gone!

xx

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I know, it seems like yesterday! Although I've managed to pick up a year's worth of "living in the South" weight, so there's my gauge. Heh.

Stupid fried food. :D

[crossbonesdj.livejournal.com]

i've been talking less on lj as well. winter does that to me - makes me want to just stay inside, alone or with matt, and just be...

i will love you no matter what, and want only the best for you.

one year already for you and rob? HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!!!

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I've noticed that you've got less to say on here, too. I don't think that's a bad thing. I'm glad to see your happiness with Matt, and with the new DJ gigs you're getting. I miss your voice, but I love knowing you're out there living life, too!

I love you and miss you greatly!

[boadiccea.livejournal.com]

sweetie, it occurs to me to say something now, because this is the 2nd or 3rd time I've seen you make a post like this, and I want to present an alternative to why you don't hear from some people if you're absent for awhile.

I tend to think if you're not posting, you're busy. You've got stuff going on. And I'm not the type of person who's going to go *poke poke* "where are you?" or anything if you're busy, because I don't want to be annoying. :) I know if someone did express concern, you wouldn't think that they were annoying, but that's my own little hangup. I feel like I'm being annoying if I do that. Now, if I didn't see you post in what I thought was an extremely long period of time, I'd ask you if you were okay, but otherwise, I'd just assume you're living life to the fullest! :) (Which it sounds like you are.)

Maybe that's wrong of me? I don't know -- but I did want to put it out there and let you know about it.

*hugs*

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Not wrong at all. And that shows you're definitely paying attention. ;)

I'm really secluded down here. I think it starts to show when I get the need to post statements like that.

And I'll admit that I want to be missed. I went from being someone who was constantly busy with Things To Do and People To See to... well, this life. Generally the highlight of my day is talking to a grocery cashier, getting a mocha and waiting for Rob to get home. I've been taking steps to change that, finally - thank goodness. But I miss having people actually seek me out.
I know that I have a good list of people who I can truly count on to care, and that helps a lot. And those are the ones whose posts I often go out of the way to read, like yours. You'll know because I comment, even if I haven't posted in days.

Did I sound too petulant? I probably am. I'm really glad you're so honest with me, I need that. :)

[ihvpave.livejournal.com]

I ditto the above about figuring you're busy and whatnot. I still want to get together, but I've been having a hard time feeling like being around ppl at all, so I just... haven't gotten in touch with you.

I'm sorry. Please don't think you're not wanted or missed.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you've been feeling a lot of what I have, too. Not being about to give a crap about getting up? Yeah. It is awfully hard to get dressed and care about leaving the house.
I know we'll have time to hang out when the time is right. It'll happen. And I suspect that once you have more structure with the new job and whatnot, that will help you a lot.

Can I give you a big hug when I see you next? I think that's a needed thing. :)

[aubli.livejournal.com]

you sounded kind of angry to me, but my reading may be colored by my own mood. i’ve always been disappointed that i never got to know a lot of people from the dawning better—you included. i’ve wasted a lot of opportunities to make friendships—keeping up with people online is good, but it’s not really the same thing.

that said, emails might be a better way to feel connected with people than blogging… they’re more personal. the recepient knows you’re talking to them, and so even though you’re not casting your net as wide i guess the reward may be greater for both parties involved? seems to work well for stephen, anyway, and i might try it myself if i can be arsed.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

You're talking like an englishperson now. I love that. :)

I'm probably a bit angry, too. Disappointed more than anything, though. I keep forgetting: out of sight, out of mind. That applies to me, as well. I'm guilty as charged.

I like LJ because it creates conversations that email does not, with other people adding in as they're inspired. More importantly, I miss face-to-face interaction with people, and LJ approximates that more than email does. But I should email more.
If you can be arsed to give me your addy, I'd email you. :D

[das-uber.livejournal.com]

At least the L is not spelling like an englishperson.

Congratulations in advance on your anniversary. I just passed my 8th...it does keep getting better, if you work at it.

[boadiccea.livejournal.com]

You get to feel what you feel. :) I wouldn't say it's petulant, but I was a little concerned when I'd seen it.

I'm glad you're getting out more - I'm sure it's been a big change, it's hard to get used to a completely different place to live, especially one that's more isolated than what you're used to. I'm not sure I could do it, myself.

[ashbet]

She has a point, hon . . . when I don't hear from a friend on LJ for a while, I usually assume that they're just too busy to write unless I know that something's wrong . . . I'm sorry that you're feeling isolated, though -- I know that feeling really well, since I've been sick, I've drifted away from some friends and never see others. *sigh*

**hugshugs**

-- A <3

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I'm lucky enough that I do have a few friends who know that me not posting regularly on LJ is definitely a warning sign. However, for the relatively new peoples like you and Beez, it wouldn't be obvious by any means. How could it?
Also, I do forget that the world does not revolve around ME. :)

In other words, moment of weakness and isolation and a bit of disappointment, and I beg forgiveness for that. ♥ You've got some serious stuff to deal with in your own life, you don't need my whining.

[jukebox-heroine.livejournal.com]

i think of you everyday because i sleep with your pillow.
i remember when i met rob at cryptkicker. he was so sweet. :D
congrats!

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Sleeping with my pillow sounds so romantical. :)
Is it helping any?

Rob's the best. Seriously. I am constantly amazed at how much he supports me.

Miss you sooooo much.

[jukebox-heroine.livejournal.com]

haha romantical.
word.
i miss you all the time!! the pillow does help. it's comforting.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Of all the people I know, I never ever ever doubt your love for me. You're a true-blue friend who never fails to remind me, often with the simple things that other people might take for granted. [text messages make runky smile!]

I'm extraordinarily lucky to have a friend in you. I never forget that.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I like the suspense. It gives me something to look forward to when I check the mail! :)

Yay SQUIDGES!

[jdavyd.livejournal.com]

eh, you know i love ya.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

You're also someone I never doubt. :)

We've been through a lot as friends. That's the best cement one can imagine.

[jdavyd.livejournal.com]

one word that sums it up... sticky.

do you know about this? i assume yes.

stiiiiicky.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Yep yep! Planning on coming! Like I'd miss you guys if I could possibly help it. :D

Re: stiiiiicky.

[jdavyd.livejournal.com]

cool. i wanted to see what you were up to, 'cause we are going to come down the night before, which means lots of free time the day of.

Re: stiiiiicky.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I can do that! Let me know what your plans are, I can easily make it up there early.

Re: stiiiiicky.

[jdavyd.livejournal.com]

i will keep you in the loop. also if i could get your cell number at some point that might be apropro.


and also.... love.

Re: stiiiiicky.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

443 567 1046

loop is good.

love is better.

[phir.livejournal.com]

i'm sorry you're feeling this way honey, & that i haven't really been commenting. <3

i can't believe it's been almost a year since you moved & got married... wow time flies!

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I'm just glad to see your business growing and that you're taking care of yourself so much more now. That makes me really happy. You deserve success!

Time really does fly! I don't feel like I've been here a year. And married for a year! That's crazy! :D

[6-and-66.livejournal.com]

I hope I told you I noticed and missed you.

All the things you are doing.. you inspire me!

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I've been worrying about you lately. I hope you're hanging in there - things *will* get better.

You're definitely good at letting me know you think about me. *hug*

[6-and-66.livejournal.com]

I'm hanging in there.. I got more roadblocks, but....
I'm not as bad as last year emotionally.. just worse off financially.
I'd prefer it this way!
Thank you so much!

[sleepwalks.livejournal.com]

i <3 you and read your entries regularly. i hope that we are friends, because i am proud to be your friend. i heart you and am very excited about your anniversary.

:)

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I <3 you and especially your more... unconventional entries. Always good for a giggle! If we are not friends, I will be very sad.

Anniversary! Yay love!

[dcunitedfreak.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm sure people noticed your silence...at least I did. Actually, my mom is always asking what is up with my friends and when she asked specifically about you, I realized I hadn't heard anything from you lately on lj. I realize that I myself haven't been posting much lately, but my life is boring and nothing exciting has been happening lately.

I'm glad things are pretty well for you overall. Thanks so much for the Xmoose card! It was wonderful!

Happy Anniversary!...a few days early :)

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Your mom is so awesome. Hence why she's got such an awesome daughter, I'm guessing. :)

I've been thinking about you a bit. I fuss like a mother hen, it's true. But I worry. I know the past couple of months have been not so easy for you. I wish I was around to get coffee/tea and baked goods, or go DDR and just have some fun with you and David and whoever else that was around that would want to go.

Things are getting better here. Slowly. ;)
And thank you for the anniversary wishes! I'm a lucky girl. Luuuucky.

[inefficiency.livejournal.com]

Did you know that you're entirely too kind to me?

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I don't know how you could think that. You're amazing. You are the shining star in my sky, you know.

[endangeredhuman.livejournal.com]

First off Congrats on the Anniversary, I hope you 2 continue to make one another happy for 100 more years. heheh
Don't worry about having to always keep up with everyone, we all know what a busy bee you are. And everyone is entitled to time off, especially you.
Take care, Miss you!
:)

[ladymeshel.livejournal.com]

A year!? Wow. Congratulations. Time flys. Someone mentioned back in December that it was the 8th anniversary of plusgoths!!

I actually *have* noticed you haven't been posting...but like most people, I just figure you are busy living life and loving your husband *smile*...and you'll check in with us when you have time.

I have a question about your clove lipbalm. I adore clove...but I've gotten clove oil on my lips before and it numbs them and burns. I am assuming the amount you use doesn't do that? I am addicted to lip balm and would love to try yours.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

krasota likes the clove lip balm a lot, which is why I held on to that formulation. :D
It doesn't sting me at all, but I don't put much in. It doesn't take much to give it a lovely smell. Some people it might sting slightly, I'm guessing - can I send you a little sample to look over and try out? I really love the glossiness of it, it makes my lips feel and look moist without that sticky feel.

Let me know if I can send you a little sampler!