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[xiane]

So. My friends list is a good cross-section of what to expect at New Year's - some people renouncing resolutions, others making them. One part staunch supporters of "making-a-change" and the other, a cadre of "fuck-that-shit." Me, I fall in the middle. I don't believe in resolutions, but I like the idea of using the date change as a marker for inspiration. I *want* to look at the years as compartmentalized little sections of time, but reality says that things change and flow as does a river, and bad times and good times aren't so easily designated. That's okay. I can still claim that I'm done with 2004 and the sweeping changes that overtook my life. I can still aspire to a better year in 2005.

Just about everything in my life changed in 2004. I went from a DJ and club night manager/promoter to an out-of-work DJ with some aspirations for starting some new things, in a new town. I changed residences and states, under particularly bad circumstances. My relationships changed completely. I changed, too. I have a new car, a new job, gained some new friends, moved back to my hometown and found it both the same and completely different.

I'm still manic-depressive. I'm still confused. I'm still full of love and idealistic, and I'm still alive.

What do I want from 2005? Happiness and stability. Opportunities to grow, a new club night, DJing opportunities. Music, to make and to listen to. Love, lots and lots of love. Joy for my friends. Some writing - because I've negelcted that for too long - and some other creative outlets. A more together and productive me.  Adventure, but nothing dangerous, just fun. Life. Lots of life.

To those who have been here on this ride, or joined me this year  - thank you for being here, for being my freind, for caring. I appreciate you all so much. Let's strive forward and see what we can make happen, yes?

Comments

Optimism informed by Experience.

[grendelskeeper.livejournal.com]

A well versed and well stated post.

I am reminded of why I love you so much ~ Reading your words infuses me with the same happiness as when I listened to you hosting SubShok in the past.....................almost. (;-]

All that is fair and fey and splendid to you, dear Chris, in the New Year!

[silent-muse.livejournal.com]

Perhaps I can make a trip to your neck of the woods happen. That's definitely a great start to this year. . .

[redzshadow.livejournal.com]

YES! :)

[verticale.livejournal.com]

Happy New Year, Chris. I look forward to seeing what the next year brings us all. <3

[hindupez.livejournal.com]

"Music, to make and to listen to."

You and me both, sister.

Hey, we could do remixes of each other's tracks. That'd be hot.