Who will tell my drunken friend that she will die and go to hell?

[xiane]

Well, today was at least marginally better than the rest of the week has been. Funny that the only factor in it that has been different that I can tell is one missing person. I need to find a way to fix that situation... I can handle a lot of stress, I'm a strong girl - but having someone I thought to trust be thoughtless with my emotions... well, I'm a bit too vulnerable there. You'd think at this age I would have some armour, and indeed I'm much better than I used to be. The thing is, this is from someone I let inside the generally well-hidden walls. Most people don't realize that I have them; I'm really good at being warm and friendly without giving away too much of myself in a lot of ways. I have a huge amount of me that I put up as public property, so to speak, as I have little to hide. But of course there's some bits of me that I have to hold in reserve, and if you're a very close friend, then you probably have access to that part of Xiane. It's not a place that most people get to see, and if I've let you in, I'd hope you would take care of it. Anyway, I need to find a way to explain this without putting said person in a defensive situation. I know that it isn't intentional, but it is making things really tough for me! I need to stop coming home and sitting around all night, depressed...

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[onceupon.livejournal.com]

Sometimes the best thing to do is just be honest -- I mean, I know you don't want to hurt said person, but if s/he is a good friend they would probably want to know that they hurt you. love, marianne