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17 February 2002 19:10![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xianeI'm really not mad all the time. I promise. Well - *crazy* mad, but not angry. I am indeed completely frustrated by the seeming lack of ability that most people I know have to not look beyond themselves... and overall, with a few exceptions, I'd like to cut off all deeper contact with a great deal of people... but I've actually been pretty happy lately.
I wonder what people really see when they see me... I mean, I get glimpses time and again, but one can never tell if those observations are fueled by outside emotions or an honest assessment. Part of me is afraid to actually know... and part of me knows that I'd never get a real answer anyway. Most people just tell me I'm so great, but half of those people are the ones I catch saying shit about me behind my back, so obviously their opinions are tainted at least a tiny bit, you know. I guess I'll just stumble around in the dark and try to treat everyone the way I'd like to be treated... and hope that's good enough for everyone.
Way too much drama around here these days. Everyone needs to chill out and not take themselves and their opinions so fucking seriously. Me, too. So let's all just get a drink, sit back and try to relax, and while we're at it... let's try to TALK to each other. Yeah. Talking. What a concept. I'm not so good at it anymore, but I'm willing to try.
*comment added upon re-reading this* I really don't mean this entry to sound so bitter or whatever. I honestly mean it when I say we all need to chill out. We are the most wound-up, low self-esteemed, uptight people ever, and we deserve a break from ourselves. Let's all have some fun, okay? Life's too short, it really is. We need to remember that.
I wonder what people really see when they see me... I mean, I get glimpses time and again, but one can never tell if those observations are fueled by outside emotions or an honest assessment. Part of me is afraid to actually know... and part of me knows that I'd never get a real answer anyway. Most people just tell me I'm so great, but half of those people are the ones I catch saying shit about me behind my back, so obviously their opinions are tainted at least a tiny bit, you know. I guess I'll just stumble around in the dark and try to treat everyone the way I'd like to be treated... and hope that's good enough for everyone.
Way too much drama around here these days. Everyone needs to chill out and not take themselves and their opinions so fucking seriously. Me, too. So let's all just get a drink, sit back and try to relax, and while we're at it... let's try to TALK to each other. Yeah. Talking. What a concept. I'm not so good at it anymore, but I'm willing to try.
*comment added upon re-reading this* I really don't mean this entry to sound so bitter or whatever. I honestly mean it when I say we all need to chill out. We are the most wound-up, low self-esteemed, uptight people ever, and we deserve a break from ourselves. Let's all have some fun, okay? Life's too short, it really is. We need to remember that.
