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Saturday night was a bit of a redeemer for me... I got a bot - a TINY bit - of faith back in what I'm doing with The Dawning. Now we have the issue of possibly losing our night because of a few people [who don't even have anything to do with Goth Night, of course] who seem to think the world is put here for their pleasure alone. Good for them that it doesn't bother them if they ruin our reputation by coming to the Rose just to sit outside and drink booze, trash the place, and piss on stuff. Good for them that when we lose our night because of their inconsiderateness, they'll bitch a little bit, then move on to the next place to trash. Fuck that.
I've found myself to be losing that infamous "Chris Knight is so nice" veneer lately. Not in all the important ways; I'm still pleasant, helpful, and generally upbeat. I'm just not biting my tongue anymore when people fuck me over. Oh no. I made it a crusade of sorts last week to confront several people who were really pissing me off with the sorts of actions which one should *never* subject a friend, mostly just jumping to conclusions and acting on them publically, without talking to me first to see what the REAL - not assumed - deal was. Very frustrating, and very intolerable to me these days.
Yeah. Seemed to go well, I guess... the results remain to be seen.
In other news, I went for the second training session to take over Subculture Shock last night. I'm nervous, but I'm also excited. I didn't plan to be a DJ, but I guess with all this love of music, I need to do something like this. I used to want to be a DJ very badly, a long time ago, which is why I did it in college for that brief time. That experience turned me off of it for years - it was terrible at the St Mary's station. No one cared, really, and often they would fuck things up so badly that it would take all my strength of will just to drag my ass in for the next week's show. WNRN seems more positive, although slightly intimidating. I'll get over it, though - I'm always nervous about new things, although in general I'm pretty fearless about things that most people shrivel up over. I mean, put me on stage and I'm totally at home... most people have panic attacks or stage fright, but performing is my drug.
Okay, I should get ready for work. I work up rediculously early, but I've squandered my time with this damn journal. Wheee.
Saturday night was a bit of a redeemer for me... I got a bot - a TINY bit - of faith back in what I'm doing with The Dawning. Now we have the issue of possibly losing our night because of a few people [who don't even have anything to do with Goth Night, of course] who seem to think the world is put here for their pleasure alone. Good for them that it doesn't bother them if they ruin our reputation by coming to the Rose just to sit outside and drink booze, trash the place, and piss on stuff. Good for them that when we lose our night because of their inconsiderateness, they'll bitch a little bit, then move on to the next place to trash. Fuck that.
I've found myself to be losing that infamous "Chris Knight is so nice" veneer lately. Not in all the important ways; I'm still pleasant, helpful, and generally upbeat. I'm just not biting my tongue anymore when people fuck me over. Oh no. I made it a crusade of sorts last week to confront several people who were really pissing me off with the sorts of actions which one should *never* subject a friend, mostly just jumping to conclusions and acting on them publically, without talking to me first to see what the REAL - not assumed - deal was. Very frustrating, and very intolerable to me these days.
Yeah. Seemed to go well, I guess... the results remain to be seen.
In other news, I went for the second training session to take over Subculture Shock last night. I'm nervous, but I'm also excited. I didn't plan to be a DJ, but I guess with all this love of music, I need to do something like this. I used to want to be a DJ very badly, a long time ago, which is why I did it in college for that brief time. That experience turned me off of it for years - it was terrible at the St Mary's station. No one cared, really, and often they would fuck things up so badly that it would take all my strength of will just to drag my ass in for the next week's show. WNRN seems more positive, although slightly intimidating. I'll get over it, though - I'm always nervous about new things, although in general I'm pretty fearless about things that most people shrivel up over. I mean, put me on stage and I'm totally at home... most people have panic attacks or stage fright, but performing is my drug.
Okay, I should get ready for work. I work up rediculously early, but I've squandered my time with this damn journal. Wheee.
