Well, I know why I was feeling so blah now.

[xiane]

I'm really tired of this.

Woke up at some indeterminate time [early, before 11a] with the realization that my stomach hurt in that "you're going to have an attack today" way. I thought to myself,"fuck!" The I thought, "Now's the time to take the percocet, you ass." So I did.

It didn't help.

This was the worst attack I've had in some time. By noon I was miserable, and by 1p I was vomitus in the most violent of ways. This went on until about 8:30ish, when I managed to choke down another percocet and pass out for a little while. Somewhere in all of that, I managed to talk to both salaciousdrift and krasota - I think with some semblance of coherence. I was supposed to go see fireworks with Jos and Tom, but of course I had to cancel that. Mr Cartwright was checking in on plans for our cookout tomorrow. I should be there... lucky for me, these attacks usually don't come back for... well, I had one a week ago today. That's the closest they've been to each other. That's actually pretty scary. O_o

So basically, another day, completely shot to hell. Another day that I could have sat out in the yard, or under the stars... that I could have spent writing or being with friends... I wasted it in sickness, worrying my boyfriend, feeling like I was definitely going to die. Fuck this. I am so tired of it. Someone SOMEWHERE has to know something about it, what it is and what I can do to help myself.
I'm tired of feeling helpless about this.

Comments

[mrjustice.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear you're under the weather Miss Knight, should you ever need a go-for while ill i'm at the top o' the stairs. Much love, mad sympathy

Randy

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Mr. Justice. My roommates rock. I definitely can't complain there :)

[mustelidmania.livejournal.com]

sweetie, have they checked you for H Pylori? cause it sure sound like it. any bloody stuff when you do your vomiting? it's just the nurse in me.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I remembered that you mentioned H Pylori before, and I've been checking into it. I haven't had any bloody or coffee-grounds looking stuff come out of me yet. I swear that it still holds to all the symptoms of gall-bladder, although UVa claims that the sonogram says otherwise.
I haven't been able to afford [or bring myself to owe more for] another visit for more tests. I owe an outrageous amount to those ineffectual people already.

You've been more help to me in the responses and advice you've given in here, than the hospital ever did.

[krasota.livejournal.com]

aye, i was wondering about h pylori. another scary thought would be hepatitis, but you don't have all the symptoms of any of those, either. (thankfully)

*slurps*

[dichotomous.livejournal.com]

It sounds just like gall bladder issues. I had mine out last December after suffering off and on for years. I hope you can get to another doctor for a second opinion soon.

In the meantime, avoiding anything with grease or caffeine in it may help. I know you've probably heard that before, and it's almost impossible to do.

*hugs*

[mustelidmania.livejournal.com]

Chris: a normal sonogram does not mean a normal gallbladder. It could very well be that. If the pain is bad enough that percocet does not handle it, your body is sending out heavy duty signals to you. Where is the pain at? My office also has a simple test for H pylori. Let me know

[xiane.livejournal.com]

As soon as I get a free moment, I wanna chat with you about it... as you're the only professional person who has been any help to me at all! :)
The people at the emergency room assured me that it wasn't my GB, based on sonogram. I suspect the were just trying to get rid of me, because they kicked me out without telling me ANYthing. They just gave me percocets and waved me out the door. Jerks. At that point, I just wanted them to figure out what the hell was going on with me, and it felt like they were putting in a minimum of effort. O_o

[silent-muse.livejournal.com]

Honey, I could write a fucking book on hospitals and how little work they're willing to put forward sometimes, but that would solve nothing, so I won't.

But, of course, if anything is needed at all, you need but to ask. . .

[mustelidmania.livejournal.com]

sweetie you know that I worry too much about those I love........
call me when you can

[ex-carnaval-619.livejournal.com]

*hugs* sorry to hear you had another bout with this mystery illness :/ I do hope you get to the bottom of what this is, quickly! I'm sure if you needed some help financially to get another test done we could start a "help Chris Knight kick this fucking unknown illness she has" campaign, among your friends, and collect some dough...vomiting often (I'd say atleast once a week) is not a good thing...your health is very important to us all *nods* *hugs*