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[xiane]

Everyone's posting about George Takai coming out of the closet, and I was more interested with his tale of growing up in one of the American internment camps for Japanese-Americans, and that they were ironically fond memories. I guess it's just no surprise to me that he's gay? And I already know that Gay People are Just Like Straight People? Heh. Maybe it's that I was a Theater Major, so none of this phases me anymore ;)

I wonder if that'll make our signed copy of Mirror Friend, Mirror Foe more valuable. :P

Today I have a manicure appointment. My cuticles suck in the wintertime, and anyway, Mom gave me a GC for the local "spa" for a manicure, so I should use it before I move. Honestly, I should have gotten a pedicure instead, because my feet are ungodly dry and kinda rough right now, but I can do it myself.
I just feel like I need to be pampered. Thursday came and left me feeling a bit down and abandoned, and I feel the big changes coming. They're mostly good changes, but there's a few things that I've seen happening that I can only watch as they slip away.
Soon it'll be just me and Rob, and I'll have to find my happiness even more from my own heart alone.

I remember when I first moved to Charlottesville... I didn't know anyone but Angry Rob's family, so I spent every day wandering around the streets, alone, looking for jobs and interesting and cheap things to do. I was much more used to entertaining myself then; I've been spoiled with this whole Dawning/TVD/Cryptkicker-based community base. I got used to always having a friend nearby when I wanted to have company. Even moving here, it didn't take long to expand past the few friends I already had to a group of interesting souls with shared interests.
It's gonna just be Rob and I, against the world. Or something less dire-sounding.

Yeah, okay. Fuck this talk.

Anyway, Dinner with Mom and Aunt Mary after the manicure, and then I'll be home. I intend to buy a fancy coffee beverage and possibly a glossy magazine or an interesting book, and then think about what stuff I might want to fill an apartment with. Or maybe I'll suss out the bones of my nascent plot and characters for NaNoWriMo. I could go through my CDs. I guess once I move I won't be DJing much anymore. Maybe I'll just sell a bunch of them.

I'm so freakin' disenchanted by everything but Rob. I'm sorry.

Comments

[ladymeshel.livejournal.com]

Ok...I'm confused...why can't you dj once you move, find new friends, etc??

[alannakitty.livejournal.com]

I will be sorry to see you go but you have been waiting a long time for this. I hope everything workss out well.

After you go through your cd's let me know what you are thinking of getting rid of as I might want to snatch it up!

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Where I'm moving is a very small town [Shelby NC], with pretty much no or little in the way of the culture I love. I can drive to Charlotte or Columbia SC, but it's different when you're not living there and directly involved. I suspect that I'll be quite the odd duck in Shelby, especially as I've been there several times and I get a lot of stares just walking down the street. That takes me back like 15 years or so :)

Mostly, I'm being maudlin, but I do acknowledge that a LOT of things are going to be changing at once when I move. It's like my whole life is shifting into a new gear.

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Thank you, lovely lady. I have indeed been waiting for a long time, and I'm really excited about finally getting to BE with Rob.

I will keep you in mind for first CD perusals!

[ladymeshel.livejournal.com]

And you *have* to move there because that is where Rob got a job?? Hmmm...this doesn't sound healthy for you. You need another outlet other than each other for support. What will you *do* there? I don't mean to be unsupportive...but I think you are being maudlin for a reason. It sounds like me being forced to move back to my hometown (at least one of my best friends is living there currently...but other than that...I think I'd go crazy)

[eure-maum.livejournal.com]

y do people always start selling things when i can't afford them?? *wink*

hey, tried to txt message ya the other night and it said it was not a wireless device. did i do something wrong?

[eure-maum.livejournal.com]

by the way, couldn't u go to ashville, nc, to do djing gigs??? or wherever the hell newlyrisendead is from/goes to.

[ispokethewords.livejournal.com]

You are too awesome for words Chris and I will miss you a lot when you are gone. Even though we only really see each other at work, I get really excited when I know that I'm working with you. You're so intelligent and fun to be around :)
Hehe, I swear I'm not hitting on you or anything! You're just awesome.

[onceupon.livejournal.com]

I DO think you're going to have to find some sort of outlet once you move to Shelby or you're going to go crazy. It's not so much the healthy, hon, to have nothing and no one other than your intended. But I'm also sure, once the move happens, you'll make a place for yourself and figure out SOMETHING.

I, for one, would be mightily interested if SOMEONE *coughcoughxianecough* were to start podcasting music.

when you meet a stranger, look at his shoes

[crossbonesdj.livejournal.com]

if there is no culture in the town...MAKE SOME!

odds are, there are other people there (or in surrounding cities) who are interested in doing a stich n' bitch...or watching movies....or chatting over coffee.

you'll find them. freaks find each other.

and remember - we'll always be around.

[artsygeek.livejournal.com]

What I find interesting....is the fact that, unlike most of the other ST characters, Sulu was, for all intents and purposes, a eunuch. For the actor playing as him to be gay, is almost predictable in terms of television and movies of that era. Take the character of Samantha's Uncle Arthur in "Bewitched".

[inefficiency.livejournal.com]

I do wish I could be bringin' you along into a better town. I love you a whole bunch, though, and I'ma do my best to make yours and our lives here as super as they can be.

[ex-carnaval-619.livejournal.com]

First of all, you will not be far from Charlotte. Goth nights there. Secondly, I'm sure DJ Spider and company would LOVE to have you help out. Thirdly, You sell cds, I KILLLLLLLL You. Atleast sell them to me, and/or so you can get them back if you need them or, goddamnit, make me copies before you do so, so if you sell 'em you still can get them back, just copies, not the originals :P Something.

Fourthly, you're BOUND to make friends in the area, even if it's nearer Charlotte and seriously, hello, you're a ride to Richmond away, which is far, but that's the closest I've had you in a year, so I'll take what I can get and mostly know that if nothing else, we can MEET UP in a place if you want, like you want to come up to Chapel Hill (even though it's closer to me) I can meet you there or Raleigh or Durham, or Greensboro, or Winston-Salem or fuck, Charlotte :P

Having you in NC makes Kristy a happy girl, just so you know. I love you bunches and oodles and this gives me more reason to a) love NC more than I already do and b) use my brother's permanant address and change over all my shite to NC so that I can go to UNC-Asheville or (god would I love if Duke accepted me when time comes to transfer) wherever cheaply and be even closer to you. YAY.

That's my two cents. Btw, when do you know for a fact you'll be in NC? Also, I won't be at the bella morte/misfits show on the 19th of November b/c the MAC counters in Greensboro/Winston-Salem are having a MAC/AIDS event fundraiser and I bought a ticket to go to that b/c all of the MA's were begging me (seriously, they were, it's funny) to come and since 100% of my money goes to AIDS charities, then I'm down with that. :P Esp. now since 45 Grave, or should I say, Dinah Cancer, isn't going to be with the bands.

*hugs* *hugs*

[xiane.livejournal.com]

Yeah, Rob got a job - the ONLY job offer he's seen - there. On the plus side, his family lives there, and they're great. And I have a few friends that will be closer than they are now.

But honestly, even here I've only had 3 or so people I've consistently spent time with. I knew when I moved away from Cville that things were changing for me. I'm hoping that there will be some crafting type stuff to get involved with, but I haven't seen a soul there who likes what I like. I think I'll have to do some serious adjusting; but in a lot of ways I'm ready to move into a new phase of life.

I guess change is just always unsettling, and that's what I'm feeling.
At least I have friends like you, even if we're not even in the same time zone :)

[xiane.livejournal.com]

443 567 1046? That should work; perhaps my local satellite/tower/phone god was acting up [again?]

[xiane.livejournal.com]

I dunno what I want to do yet. In some ways, I keep feeling like I'm pretty much done with DJing. I love music. But man... the crowds. The "scene." It wears you down after a while.

But then again, I wouldn't have met people like you guys without the DJing thing. O_o

[xiane.livejournal.com]

*laugh* you are so funny. I'm goig to miss you, too. I ALWAYS look forward to working with you, because I know that it will be fun and we'll actually get to talk about interesting stuff. [and we have the same work ethic, always a plus! ]
for now, there's BAUHAUS. And then there's always the train and shows and hey, Mom still lives in B'more, which means I'll be visiting! Wooo!

[xiane.livejournal.com]

That's a thought, y'know. I could handle a podcast or a weekly streaming show. I mean - I have all this MUSIC.

I think the first couple of months are going to be hard. But I will have a lot of setting up of my household to do, and my online friends, and then maybe I'll find something to sink myself into. I won't be able to know until I get there, I think. Just remember - CHAPBOOKS. As soon as I move and settle, we're jumping on that, okay?

Re: when you meet a stranger, look at his shoes

[xiane.livejournal.com]

... ever since you replied, I've had the REM song "Good Advices" in my head.

The "freak" quotient there is low-to-none. I'm hoping that the "interesting artist/crafter or writer" quotient is higher, though. Once I'm there, I'll be able to judge a little better. There is a pretty *out* Church Of Wicca there, so anything's possible ;)

[xiane.livejournal.com]

An 80's night would be a blast, as we both have superior 80's music taste :)

I am indeed still spinning at Midnight on Nov 5th! Are you comeing out? :)

[ispokethewords.livejournal.com]

I look forward to being able to hang out with you without it being considered "favortism". You are awesome and I look up to you with a lot of things. Bauhaus will be awesome and I'd love to visit one day after you move because i love the south and need a reason to visit there!

[onceupon.livejournal.com]

*grin* I was going to suggest something with the chapbooks.

I've been collecting and writing new poems -- because I think I want to do something fairy tale themed.

Doh!

[eure-maum.livejournal.com]

i found the problem...i had put a 1 in between the 1046...hence why it didn't work....now it should since i redid the phone number :)